Mausi I am very sorry I cannot listen at this time. I am very busy with work and also was told by the doctor, to keep stress levels to a minimum. Work is making that difficult, you would imagine!

Ida Amick
Psychotherapy & Counselling
Imperial College Health Centre
London SW7 1LY

Phone: 020 7584 6301

Mama, you might guess where I am but you’ll never guess why it is I’m here.

Here is New York and I’ve only just landed a bit ago. Not sure if you heard or not, but I recently got to work with Amanda Palmer (of the Dresden Dolls) in covering Blackstar for her David Bowie tribute album. She and the composer, Jherek Bischoff had similar reactions to everybody when what happened happened and decided to go ahead and record an EP. Thea had passed on my details to Amanda a bit ago now, and she remembered the few covers of his I did, then rang me up to ask me if I’d contribute vocals and guitar to one of the tracks. It really helped with the place I am in my career currently, and the spot of quicksand I find myself in creatively, and it helped us to mourn. Then she told me Tony Visconti had asked her and Jherek to play at the big benefit gig for Bowie at Radio City Music hall. And I’m playing with them. For 6000 people. We’re going to sing for David and Michael Stipe is going to be there and so many people. It feels as though it’s not real, but then I still don’t entirely feel the year is real so far.

I can’t sleep and wanted to tell you. I’ve sent you the EP if you and dad would like to have a listen. I’m really excited. I feel like things are going to be okay.

Claude

the.
time
is….
now

so like i can’t stop thinking about something you said during our first few emails...

it’s 2am in la. you’re probably sleeping. it’s almost the witching hour. (are you sleeping?) it’s when the mind springs to life. it’s when it whispers. to you. in your ear.

i heard your voice

somehow. we hadn’t spoken. not in person. i heard your voice reading your words.
(anthony will not sleep, mommy can not sleep- cycle of life, death, rebirth)

it said:
nothing has been the same since.
i spoke to your voice. i said:
nothing has changed.

but it has you’re right and i knew that. i crawled out of bed to tell you. i feel like we connect on a musical, artistic, intrinsic, deep level. i am overwhelmed we get to do this together for our love of the man whose name it took weeks to be able to say again, for us all to be able to say again?? and i thought of what you said about us being trees. made me think. took me to a story neil told me when i couldn’t sleep (like today, without baby; strange) when i said to him, i said neil, you’re unique and he said there are thousands like me. when i asked where, he said, behind the trees. what trees? i asked. all the trees.

all the trees.

that’s where he is and if he is in the trees, he is in our instruments as he is in the air.

radio fuckin city music fuckin hall.
radio
fuckin
city

anyway

i think you said you’re flying in tomorrow which is perfect as i’ll be back in the city for rehearsals/etc/clothing specs- i have ideas. and we’ll have time before the winery to practice and everyone is super nice and its such a good vibe and the duke would be proud, i think.

then i heard it again just now, your voice. it said: everything has changed
it always is. it always will.

xo afp

Fuckeeen antiques dealers I was so confused when I woke up. Sure I know a guy. I'll what's app his deets to you. I'm not correcting the correct- I just woke up. But yeh sure no worries, luck with the gigs, kid. Break an arm again. x

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I've got some gigs coming up in New York so I'm not going to be in town for a while. Do you know anyone there I can use? I'd rather ask you personally than ask topix and end up getting decapitated. Mercy buckets, my lanky pal.

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